Mix thougths

I am very lazy to write recently but there are lots of things that I like to write about them I just summarize some here:

-The older I get the more I realize that I cannot really understand why we are living here and what is really god's purpose for bringing us to this world? May be it is easy for religious people to say that because there is another world and we are passing a test for a better life in next life! But really? Ok let's say that we be the best of ourselves and then go to the next life and have a eternity of heaven what next? Won't be that too boring?

Why most of people in this world are suffering from poverty, war, diseases, disability, being an orphan and etc? Again some religious people may say suffering make us stronger! Is it really fair for a kid to be born for instance in the middle of civil war in Syria and loses both parents? Does this make him stronger?? Why he needs this strength? Why a kid that is born as a British prince does not need this strength? What is the difference between these two kids? Just the place and time that they are born in!!

For a while I thought only answer to my questions can be the Buddhist philosophy that believes in reincarnation so we come back to this world with a new life and pay for the mistakes that we made in past life and the very few ones that looks like having a great life is because they were very good people in their last life! But now I think ok if that is true we won't really remember who we were in our last life so even if we suffer for our mistakes and sins we don't realize what the reason is and our soul lives like a new soul so what is the point??

I still strongly believe in god as source of power and energy of the universe but I really don't get his/her/Its policy and procedures. I wish people would suffer less and we had a better world!!

-A very young Iranian girl is facing death penalty just because she attacked and killed the man who wanted to rape her now the family of the murdered man do not forgive her and she has to be executed! What kind of law is this? Why this poor girl should lose her life although she wanted to defend herself? I hate death penalty, it just promotes violence. If a person even kills other people on purpose still killing him do not change the fact that some people will do the same thing in future and death penalty does not bring down the crime rate just promotes it. If a murderer goes to prison for life he dies a little every day and that is a worse punishment than killing him! I hope these dark ages rules change in every country!