To work or Not to work!

They moved us to 12th floor today that are the floor that our director, chief and head of HR are located, so we can be observed by them all the time. Worse than that, our director will be on the top of my head any minute! Now I should be very careful when I check my Yahoo email account or open some web logs to read. I really wish I would win the lotto and could stay at home and not to work. Although I like my job but still it is working for someone else, and it makes me separated from my son.

May be we should have kept our life simpler, we could live in an ordinary neighborhood in a 3-bedroom house so I would stay home and take care of my son. The bad thing about my major is, if I don’t work for 2 to 3 years nobody wants to hire me any more. I will get so behind of technology!

Sometimes I really do not know what is more important in life, having a career, so if god forbids something happens to my husband or like some couples after certain years we get divorce, at least I have a career that can take care of me and my son or staying home be with a full time Momy. I don’t know I am one of those ones that want to have every thing at the same time “ ham khoda ro mikham ham khorma”. I want to have a nice house, live in good neighborhood, have career and spend lots of time with my baby, with my husband’s salary alone which is not really low, still we can not afford it. The problem is we both like fancy things!!

Deep in my heart I know being with my son full time is the most important thing but I should be careful for future too, I have seen women that do not work and depend on their husbands and then when something happens to the man they really can not manage their lives, or when the man chits on them or do all sorts of cruel things to them, they can not get divorce because they can not afford it, specially in Iran, at least here you can make the man to give you half of the belongings and get some alimony, but even here if the guy is very clever and gets a good lawyer, the woman can not do much. So may be the conclusion is to continue to work and be thankful for having a job! Or may be god listens to me one of these days and I win the lotto!!!