Happy

-Today was one of the happiest days of my Professional life! I have been working on a very complicated and critical piece of the project that I talked about here before (the one that I was not very fond of before). I had to develope a solution that would work with three different products and technologies and there were some incompatibility between them in regards of their versions and supporting each other (I know I am talking too technical here). I was very frustrated and at the same time very motivated to find the solution. I told myself that I won’t give up. I have to make this work all by myself. Any way after few days of researching and experimenting I could make it work today. When I told my boss the news he was so trilled! We had a conference call with one of the product teams about new upgrade and when my boss told them what I did, the lead developer of their team said:”just one of our customers had to deal with such a complicated process like yours , our engineering team developed a custom application for them to resolve the issue. Can you send us your application so we have it for our record!!!”. I was so happy to hear that, and I could see the happiness in my bosses face, he was so proud!
I have to confess that when I was moved to my current team to work on this project I was very upset and did not like this change. My blog readers most probably remember that I used to nag a lot about this change but now I think that was the right move for me and I am learning a lot. I liked my pervious team a lot but my work had become too routine and it was not challenging enough for me. My lesson in life from all this, is most of the times change is good although it appears tough in the beginning!

-I see the therapist once a week now and she has given me good advices and tips. I have to work on them but I already see some progress. I think it was a good idea to talk to a therapist. One thing that she said to me yesterday about the guilt feeling that I always have because I work and am not with my kids full time was “you have to make a decision in life based on facts and be comfortable with your decision you cannot change your mind back and forth and feel guilty when you made a decision”. That was another good lesson, I think I am too hard on myself; I try my best at work and at home but I always look back and think maybe I did not make the right choice and that pressures me. If I decided to be a working mom I have to remember of positive side of that choice and be comfortable with it. I think this applies to lots of our decisions in life. Some good characteristic that I see in lots of western people especially Americans is they don’t give themselves guilt trip like us (eastern people) all the time. Even if they make not a very good choice, they say” I did whatever worked for me at that moment of my life and I am in peace with it! “I have to learn to be more that way myself and be more in peace with my choices in life. Bottom line is nothing is perfect and neither am I. I just to have to try my best!