Single or Married?

-I have a friend that I have written about her here before. She is my best friend. I don’t know that we are still best friends or just old friends. We know each other from 5th grade and we were so close when we were both in Iran, she was the first one to move to US and then I moved two years later. She got married first also. She lives one hour away from San Diego in Orange County. When I moved to US we were both very happy and kept our friendship close. When I got married we tried to make our husbands friends so we could hang out more. My husband is pretty friendly so we could hang out as couples as well but after five years of marriage she got divorced about five years ago and after that she had a single life style and found new single friends so she could have fun with them. I have been happy for her to be able to run her life happily after divorce. Obviously we don’t see each other as much because I am married and have two kids and am very busy and worst of all we live one hour away from each other. Even this one hour trip makes it harder to see each other but we are always in touch and see each other whenever we can.
In these last 5 years she has been dating different guys but none of those relationships ended to marriage. I was talking to her the other day and she was telling me that she is very happy as a single person and does not feel like getting married. She goes out with her single friends almost every weekend and they are going to south France in August.
I have to confess that I was jealous. I was thinking to myself that when was the last time that I went out to party and have fun. Recently we just go out as a family and with two kids it can be very challenging! I feel like I don’t have personal fun. I enjoy my kids a lot and am happy to have them and spend time with them but I miss going out and having fun. I know you say so why don’t you go out sometime? Because I get so tired of the outside work and home work that by the time that is Saturday night don’t have energy to go out. For example we wanted to go out for a dinner or movie last Saturday but I had tons of laundry and other works to do so by the time that was evening I was so tired that I did not feel like going out. My husband is not as helpful as he can be. I need to remind him all the time to help more! And sometimes I get tired of these reminding!! Any way Sometimes I think may be staying single and live the life all on our own is more fun and is a lot easier. I get lots of love from my kids and don’t trade them for the world but what about me and my young days that are passing by so fast? My mom says you have family and kids, when you get older you have two sons and that will be joyful, imagine if you be only when you are old! But in a world like US they will leave the house and will go to other states for education or work and I will see them may be once or twice a year, they won’t fill my loneliness when I am old! If we will end up being alone when we are old, isn’t it better to at least be single and enjoy our life when we are young without too much responsibility and hard work?
I know that I don’t like to be single and personally I am a family person so I should be happy to have my own family and try to have fun every now and then and don’t compare myself with my single friend! But sometimes especially when I am tired I cannot stop that kind of comparison!!!!!!!!!!
-By the way my mother-in-law is staying with us since last week until at least mid August! She is in process of becoming US citizen and is waiting for her swearing ceremony! I am very patient about it; she is more helpful than before and is appreciating me more because my other sister-in-law treated her really bad when she stayed with them for a while. I feel sorry for her. She has been waiting for her citizenship process in last few months and she has been back and forth to her son’s houses. She could rent a place temporarily but she is a little bit stingy for that!! But I am trying my best to be nice and understanding.