Friday, July 27, 2007

Tired!!

I have been very busy in last couple of weeks. I have a lot to do at work and by the time that I get home I am so tired.
I was thinking to myself that may be women should not really work especially when they are Moms! May be they were doing the right thing in old times that women would stay home with kids and took care of house and men would work outside and provide for family! Look at myself I am pregnant, have a 4 years old boy and I work in a job that has lots of responsibility! Is this right?
But on the other hand I think to myself that I would get bored if I would stay home! What if god forbids I lose my husband or he cannot work any more, IF I don’t have a career how can I support myself and my family??
I think whenever I become tired these thoughts come to my mind and at the end I come to conclusion that I like to work and be productive, make money and be financially independent. What ever we choose in life we gain some benefits and we lose other benefits, we should just analyze it for ourselves and see what makes us happier and there is no formula for that, For every one is different!

I am looking forward to my trip to Iran , I am excited and on the other hand need a good vacation. I hope every thing goes well!

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Guests!

-Days are passing by so fast recently! We have our guests from France at our home now. My husband has got one week and half off to spend time with his cousin and his family, He is taking them to all sight seeing and I think he is killing himself so they can have a good time!! I don’t know why when it comes to his friends and family he exaggerates so much. We went to France last year and spent 4 days at their house but most of the time we were home and did not do much sight seeing or any thing like that!
He has taken them to LA to go to Universal Studio and other places today. They will leave on Sunday to go to Northern California to visit other relatives that they have, they will be back in two weeks and stay with us few days before going back to France.
All the routine of our house is changed, I don’t want to nag but I work full time and I have a kid and on top of that I am pregnant too. Any way I try to be patient!
The other day my husband’s cousin’s wife who is French was telling me that your son is a difficult kid, may be because you went back to work and did not stay home with him!
My on is an active, curious boy but he is polite and sweet, sometimes he gets stubborn but that is because of his age! I really did not like her comment and I just said: ”every kid is different, he has a strong personality I am not sure if I would not go back to work that would change his personality!”.
Some people just let themselves to judge others and their life style!
Another thing that is bothering about her is that when we were there at their place last year, I was trying to be helpful with house work but I see that she does not do anything, it’s like she is in a hotel! I feel like she is not even appreciative that my husband is spending so much time and energy with them so they have a good time!
I feel that we Iranians are very appreciative when others are kind and hospitable to us and when we are in some body’s house as a guest we mostly try to do as much as we can but may be in some other cultures people just take it for granted! Any way this will pass, and I put up with it because of my husband! I just wanted to talk it out!

-I love reading; I should always have a book to read before sleep. I am running out of books these days, I am so busy and do not have time to go to library or book store to get a new book so I have started to read books that I have read them before!! For instance I had read Alchemist ( Kimiagar) two times before but decided to read it again and this time I am looking in to it very deeply. May be most of you have already read it because it is famous book, If you have not I highly recommend that.
When I was reading it I was thinking how much in life I have followed my dreams. I know I have followed some but not all of them. How many of us, follow most of their dreams?
Sometimes our dreams look so remote that we just give them up, but can we get what we want if we really try hard? How much destiny has influence in our lives? I know that is very common question! I think, certain things are our destiny and are beyond our control like where and in what family we are born, but we have choice on lots of thing in our lives and what decision we make at certain time of life can change our destiny. I remember when I wanted to move to US, my Mom was against it and I was not sure at that time that was the right thing for me but I thought to myself if I don’t try at least I will regret it some day! I made the choice and may be destiny helped me to get the visa!
I know whenever I have really tried hard to reach something I got what I wanted but whenever I doubted my abilities to reach it or I thought this is the destiny and I cannot change that I got stuck! And did not move forward!
I want to teach my kids to follow their dreams and try hard for it, I don’t want them to give up their dream just because they think that is our destiny! They should learn to at least try as much as possible!