Busy as usuall

-Last couple weeks were not that easy with my son, we gave in finally and he does not go to the after school any more. Right after her school my Mom picks him up and he comes home. We saw that he was really stressed over going to after school (He would spend about 3 hours there, mostly doing fun things!). There were two boys bullying him and although those boys will not go to the after school program since tomorrow, he still does not want to go. SO we are giving him a break. I think it is more than just being bullied by other students, that is why that I have found a good psychologist to work with him for few sessions so I make sure that this is just a phase. I don't want him to hold any thing inside and then sufferes from that for a long time! Hopefully he will pass this stage and get back on to the track. He is fine now for going to school but he asks us several time every morning if we will pick him up right after the class ends!
Any way I was very stressed about all this myself too.

-I am better now. but extremely busy. I have to learn lots of new things at work and I have been making lots of progress. My boss is pretty impressed but there is a long way to go. I cannot believe that Microsoft has produced so many new technologies for programming and they are so different than what we have been doing so far!

-My little boy is the source of joy for me and he is the only person that makes me release some stress and bring the real smile to my face! He is so cute and very smart! He already understands every thing that I tell him. For example when I ask him where is your book? he goes and finds the book and brings it to me!! I love him so dearly. I love them both very much and equally but the baby is less trouble at least for now!

-I watched the movie State of play over the weekend and I liked it a lot. I really like Russel Crow and he was great as usual. The story was very interesting too.

-Last but not least I wish I would win the lottery and would buy a winery in south France and would enjoy my days by lying down under sun, reading books and travel!!!!!!! is it too much to ask for???

Tough day!

-I am having hard days these days. My son has become very difficult again. Every couple months or sometimes weeks he should put me through hell! Last week was spring break and right before that he started complaining in school that he was sick and he wanted to go home so on the Thursday and Friday before spring break we ended up picking him up in the morning. He was not sick, he just wanted to come home and this is first time we had such an issue with him. I had signed him up for 3 days to a day camp so he could have fun and learn new things in spring break week. He went first day and refused to go for the next two days and I did not want to push him. He stayed home with my Mom and his little brother. Yesterday Morning he started crying very hard and begged us not to go to school just for yesterday. I knew if he would go to school they would call us later to come and pick him up again so we kept him home again but he promised that he would go today. I took him to school myself (usually his dad takes him in the Morning and I pick him up in the afternoon) and he was crying again. I talked to the teacher and she said since he got in to trouble because he did something bad and they were strict with him may be that is why he does not want to go to school. I tried to talk to him and find out what really bothers him but he just does not say it. I talked to the therapist and she said kids go through separation anxiety between 4 to 6 years old and that can be normal. He has been going to preschool since he was 2 years old and we never had this issue with him before. He never refused to go to school. Any way there is lots of pressure on me. He is my number one first source of stress. I thank god that he is healthy and smart but he is such a difficult child. I am worried that he gets worse when he grows older. I have been trying to follow psychological advises and I always read books and articles about kids and how to raise them but it seems that we have done mistakes in our parenting and we have a difficult child. I have to be always worried when I see an email from his teacher. As soon as I see it in my inbox, I tell to myself now what again?
I wish we could have control over our kids’ brain! I wish I could program him like the softwares that I program every day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-I met with the Therapist that I talked about it before. She was telling me that I should make some time for myself she believed that I put everyone a head of me in life. She said that I need to have some personal fun, some time alone just for myself; otherwise I won’t be able to function in near future! She said “you have too much on your plate!!” I am trying to do something for myself but not got a chance since last week that I saw her. I have to d something this week, something for me! Before I go to her for my next appointment!

Busy!

-I am very busy and overwhelmed these days. There are always whole bunch of things in my list that I want to do on a day off or weekend and I just cannot do all of them. I finally have decided that I need to see a therapist. I need some professional stranger to listen to me! I don’t know why but although I try to play cool and be relaxed I am not really relaxed. Hectic job, two kids, etc just don’t let me be relaxed. I have to play so many roles at the same time, be a professional woman, mother of two boys, wife to a not very easy husband, daughter to a mother (that although helps me a lot but I have to take care of her personal stuff, like Dr appointments, insurance renewal, bank stuff, etc) and sister to a broke divorced brother who needs help and support too!! I have lost 9 pounds (almost 4 kg ) in 5 months without trying to lose any weight! This is not bad but shows that I am under stress! Hopefully an extra ear like a therapist can help me to go through this stage; I know this too shall pass!
-If you like to watch a good movie I recommend the Reader! It was kind of sad but it was a good movie.
-I hope everyone has started a very good Persian New Year!
Obama’s Message for Iranians for New Year was impressive although some people believe Iranian government does not deserve it and he should have not done that but I admire him for his good intensions.