2005 ends!!

Today is the last day of 2005. It’s been few days that I am thinking that what were my 2005’s high lights? May be I should start with personal accomplishments.

-I thought a lot and I remembered my last year’s resolution, the main one was being positive! I think I improved my self and I am a more positive person than last year this time! Although there is room for more improvement!
-I feel I am more forgiving now, I have learned better to just let things go! I am doing better in just ignoring the little bothering issues and just tell myself “that is not important let it go”. This one has still room for improvement too!

In overall 2005 was a good year for my family and me. Thank god we are all relatively healthy. I am glad that my Mom made up her mind and moved to US, that was great high light for me.
I almost forgot, the other high light of the year 2005 for me was becoming a US citizen!

I really hope that 2006 be a good year full of prosperity, peace and health for every one on earth. I hope to see less natural disasters and war in this coming year.
By the way we were invited to a big New Year’s partybut got cancelled due to host’s illness, I think that we will just go downtown and walk around. Although it is raining hard and it is not safe driving in the rain in this occasion especially in CA!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rumor has it!

We had a very relaxing Christmas holidays. We did not do much but we rested well. My husband took off from work this week and my son’s school is off too. My Mom has come over to help him out taking care of my son during day because I did not take off this week. I rather save my vacation time for a real vacation. He has lots vacation hours but I don’t have much! I will just take off this coming Friday.

On Christmas night we went to Movie Theater. I am a big fan of Jennifer Anniston and I wanted to see her new movie, “Rumor has it!” One of those movies that my husband believes is very feminine. Any way I made him to come with me. The movie was funny and cute. A guy Kevin Custner had slept with a Grand ma, her daughter and finally the grand daughter!! May be it sounds sick but it was funny and at the same time had a good message for young single women, and that was to go for some one that you can build a life with not the guys that are good for having some adventure!
This is a very big issue for lots of girls. When they are young they are mostly attracted to challenging guys the ones, that look more exiting and breath taking but at the same time are good heart breakers too!!
I myself was one of those girls when I was very young between ages of 18 to 25, I was always attracted to guys that looked exiting but they were nothing but trouble! I remember that some very nice and decent boys approached me and liked me a lot but I just refused dating them since they did not seem enough challenging and exiting. I was always attracted to the guys that had good look and at the same time were not that normal or could not handle a relationship well. After two serious relationships with two apparently challenging, adventurous guys and got heart broken I got my lesson! I am glad that I at least got it, because there are some women that they never get it. After second deep heart breaking relationship I promised to myself to just date some one that will be nice, decent and who is after a peaceful serious relationship and who does not hurt me and can make me smile. When I moved to US I promised myself that I would be very careful about dating or having any type of relationship with guys. I dated a guy couple of times and as soon as I found out that he could not be a good match for me and is one of those guys that don’t know what he wants I stopped it and I was proud of myself to be able to handle things well.
Then I met my husband and honestly at the very beginning I was not sure that if he was my type although seemed nice and he had good look but since he was 10 years older than me I was kind of doubtful about starting any relationship with him but after couple of dates I thought I should decide that I wanted to continue or not. I thought I should really give this relationship a chance. I eventually grew loving him because he was the only guy that I dated that was %100 honest and that was exactly something that I was looking for, for such a long time. Now after almost seven years that I know him I never heard a lie from him. He is kind, nice honest and makes me happy and most important of all makes me feel secure. In my pervious relationships, I always felt insecure. I never could be sure what would happen next and that’s a very bad type of relationship when you are not sure about any thing!
My husband and me have sometimes our own issues but none of them are major ones and we can handle them after yelling at each other a little bit!!

Oh my god I talked too much, didn’t I? But I truly want to give young girls whoever that reads this post a piece of advise to go for peaceful and honest relationship at least when you want to get married. May be it’s good to experience the insecure challenging relationships but don’t fall for it!!

Happy New Year to every one!

Christmas

-Just few days left to Christmas. Everywhere is full of lights and most of offices and public places have nice Christmas trees in their lobbies. I love the one we have this year in our office building’s lobby. It is so pretty. We decided to go see the lights the other night in the neighborhood that is popular for it’s Christmas lights and decoration. Every single house in that neighborhood has Christmas lights and very pretty decoration out side the house. Lots of people go there just to see the decoration and lights. We went on Saturday night and it was very crowded. We decided to park the car and walk around. My son was so entertained by all the pretty decorations. There was Santa Clause and a group of people that they all had Christmas hats and they were singing the Christmas songs. I really felt the Christmas and it’s joy. I love all the holidays, every thing that brings joy and happiness to people’s routine life must be appreciated. I have a little fake tree at home on top of the fireplace that I have decorated it in the best way I could!! I am going to buy a real one next year. My son was not ready for a real one this year, I am sure he would climb the three and would play with ornaments as new toys but next year he will understand Christmas and three concept better. My husband was telling me that he will decorate house for Christmas next year! He was never into these kinds of things but since we have a kid he likes to do all those things now. I think parents become some how child again when they have kids of their own and they enjoy the things that kids enjoy them! Isn’t that amazing!

-I heard in news that US does not want to leave Iraq for a little while and I feel bad about it. I think US should let them to handle things themselves and may be all the terrorist actions in Iraq will decrease or even stop.

-Iran’s President makes very interesting speeches these days! At lease khatami always talked about peace and transferring cultures… this guy is very straightforward about his opinions! I think presidents especially in Iran should get some training about how to talk, man, you are a politician, you don’t think loud!! And say what ever that comes to your mind! Just keep it to yourself!!
I really hope that god helps people in Iran with all these things that are going on these days!! May be it’s just god that can help people!!

Merry Christmas to all Christians and happy holidays to every one that can have these days as holiday!

Syriana

We went to watch the Syriana , the new movie that some people are talking about these days. I knew it was a political movie mainly about CIA and oil companies. I am very much interested in these kind of movies, may be because I am from Iran and in last couple of decades, all of us (Iranians) are some how into politics. Any way the movie started in a party in Iran, one of those secret parties in north of Tehran that every one is drinking, dancing and …George colony who I like a lot, of course I like his look more than his act!! was one of the main roles in the movie. He was in that party and after just five minutes of showing Iran and an explosion in the street because of the gun that two Iranian guys got from George Cloony, movie went to another scenes, it was very similar to Traffic. The director would pass you from one scene to the other and you would get very busy trying to follow up every thing and make logical connections between the events. The whole story was concentrated on how US oil companies manipulate Middle Eastern governments and take the most advantage they can from oil in that region. I don’t tell you how it ended but to me it was kind of shocking! It ended so anit American policy. It showed that the US government do every thing even something that they would call it terrorism themselves to cover their own benefits. I don’t want to say what is my real belief about the whole story and if the director or writer were right or wrong. But I know something for sure and that is, in majority of countries in the world you can not make and show a movie that is attacking your country and it’s policies that strong!
I can say that seeing the movie because it reminded me that our people and the people in that region are so miserable and are suffering from dictatoship, war and horror mostly because of oil upset me. I myself wish that we did not have oil in first place. I am sure that our people would have a better life without oil!! Now are you curious to see the movie too??

Recent News

First of all I am very upset about the airplane crash in Tehran. About 130 people were killed and it seems like as usual the government did not take action properly. It seems that they knew that the airplane had problems and they had tried to fix it but it was not done completely and when the pilot asked for emergency import to the airport, it was delayed because of air traffic or god knows what and it ended up killing innocent people.
This is ridiculous. It seems the only thing is very cheap in Iran these day is people’s life. Any way I hope they at least take care of the victim’s families and support them, which I really doubt.

I am getting board at my job these days. There is not much to do, things are changing here. I have heard our manager is retiring too. I really hope that I can get job in one of the places that I have applied for. They are all related to the same agency that I work for but seem to be more interesting jobs.

My husband and me are thinking to go for vacation to Europe some time in spring. I have started to look at the tours and stuff. Tours are very expensive. For 3 of us for just 2 weeks will be some thing around $8000. No way, I am not going to pay that much money. I should look for individual vacation like we reserve hotels and air fair our selves not through tours. That must be cheaper I think. Any way we have started researching. I hope it won’t be hassle with our little boy. Europe has lots of sight seeing. I don’t know how practical it would be to go with the little one but I really want to go to this vacation! The last time that I were in Europe was 9 years a go. I miss it a lot!

ER

My Mom called me at 6:00 am on Wednesday morning. She was very sick. She just told me that she was not feeling good and I rushed towards her house. I was so scared. Because she has high blood pressure and she had stroke about 5 years ago. When I got there she said that she was so dizzy and she was vomiting. She could not even stand up. I thought I could not take her to hospital like that so I called ambulance. They were very fast. After about 8 or 9 minutes they got there. It was a big team may be about 10 people, they asked me about her medical history and stuff and assured me that most probably it was not stroke. They took her to the emergency room and I followed them to the hospital. I myself had gone to emergency room once before but this one was so organized and clean. While I was waiting for the tests and procedures to be applied on my Mom I was thinking to myself that how special are doctors and nurses. They are mostly very patient they deal with people sickness, diseases, anger and etc and they try their best to help people. This is not something that every one can handle. I myself could not be a doctor or nurse not because I don’t like helping people but because I am not that strong, brave and patient!

Any way the test results showed that my Mom had got vertigo which is a virus in ears that makes the person very dizzy and unbalanced. They gave her medications and I took her to my place to take care of her. She is doing better now. Thank god it was not important thing. I really appreciate being healthy. When you go to hospital you realize how important is the health. We all know it but we just forget about it because we are so busy with life. It is good to sit down some times and remember all the positives values of our lives and appreciate it and get some positive energy!