Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Little boy

-My little boy is getting cuter and cuter every day. He is a good baby and smiles most of the time. His older brother loves him more these days but still gets upset if we hold the baby a lot or show him attention, the good thing is when I ask him are you mad that I hold the baby he says yes and talks about it. Psychologically that is good, because he does not keep the anger inside himself. Any way it is challenging but is not as bad as I thought when I was pregnant!!

-I am busy at work but some days I can go home for lunch and spend a little bit time with the little one. My boss let me work from home on Wednesday afternoons temporarily! Hopefully I can stretch this schedule as long as possible.

_ I finished the book new earth and I learned a lot from it. I am practicing the advises and techniques. The most important point of the book is to try to live in the moment and enjoy now, this exact second that I am in it and do not get lost in thoughts so we just pass by the moments without living them!! I feel that I am making progress but I have to keep it in mind all the time.

-For those of you who read my blog regularly, have read in my one or maybe more than one post that I mentioned that two people heart me the most in my life, my ex-boyfriend in Iran and my ex sister-in-law. I had mentioned that I cannot forgive these two people! Guess what, I have forgiven them in my heart and I can tell that there is no one that I dislike these days except some politicians that lots of people don’t like them so that does not really count!!!!!!! I feel that I am growing in my heart and my mind and that makes me happy. I hope I can grow more and more and purify my soul and my heart as much as possible.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Go Back to work and getting older

-Yesterday was my first day going back to work after 14 weeks off. Time flew so fast.
I had a mixed feeling this morning when I was driving to work. I was happy to go back to work and be productive and on the other side sad to leave my son at home. It is funny that I missed the exit! 3.5 months off made me forget about direction to work.
My office is close to home so I went home for my lunch break and saw the baby.
I am going to talk to my boss in next couple of days to see if they let me work from home one day or at least half a day during the week. If they don’t I will try to go home for lunches couple times a week.

-Today I turned 35! I cannot belive that I am this old now. I still picture myself as a little girl who was always jumping around. Now I have two boys, full time job and a demanding husband to take care of! Life has changed so much in last decade of my life!