Election again

I should admit that we all know nothing about the politics. I cannot beleive that Ahmadi Nejad the worst choice possible is Iran president now. I am so sorry for all the Iranians especially young people. God know how they are going to limit every thing more than ever and how they will get back the little freedom that young people gained in Khatami 's presidency time!

Election Result

These days most of Iranians especially the ones living in Iran talk about the election a lot.
I have read several Persian blogs all talking about the election, some encourage every one to vote in second round so Rafsanjani wins not that hardliners and some feel sorry for the whole scenario. Some still think they did the right thing to vote!!
Any way unfortunately the number of people who voted was a lot more than what most of us thought. This regime knows how to manipulate people. They picked the candidates in a perfect way to create a good competition between voters, lots of people voted because they want a so-called reformist get chosen and they sent the two hat they had in mid from the beginning to the next round. The whole scenario was written to help Rafsanjani in election and make him the president. Now even those that did not vote the first time want to go and vote so Ahmadi nejad who is a heavy-duty hard liner not to be elected and Rafsanjani get in place. It is a choice between bad and worse! If people would not vote then the whole world would realize that how unwanted is this regime. Even if the worst one would be elected that would help people to find a solution faster. I believe that Mullahs still can manipulate majority of our people easily and Iranian people won’t become free until they truly realize how bad is the system and they deserve better than this. As long as they think picking between bad and worse is the only solution our country will step backward and people get poorer and the big thieves get richer. I am truly sorry for the whole situation and especially for the young people who don’t have any other option rather than living there and suffering!

Anniversairy

Today is our 5th anniversary. Every thing is better than my last post. We talked about it and we both agreed that we acted childish.

I cannot believe that these 5 years passed so fast. Five years a go at this time we were in our wedding reception. It was a nice wedding the only bad thing about it was that my Mom could not get the visa. I was so upset about it I cried a lot but I decided to be strong and enjoy my wedding day. I remember that every one expected me to cry or become emotional especially at ceremony but I blocked my thoughts and just focused on the ceremony and party. I did not want to ruin it for my husband and our guests. On the other hand, I hate when people feel pity for me I just did not want to make any body feel pity for me. My stupid Pride!! Any way now when I look back I am happy that I got married with my husband. Despite some differences that we have but we love each other and we trust each other a lot and most of all we have a beautiful son.

Tension

I was still in my angry/upset mood today when I came to work. The very bad thing about me is when I get really pissed off it takes time for me to get back on my normal mood again. I should pass the anger stage, which can take couple of hours to couple of days depending on the situation.
The thing that made me angry yesterday may sound childish, may be I should write about it to get over it. My mother-in-law invited herself to come and stay with us last Thursday; she is planning to stay at least until the end of this week. As usual when she come she says stuff and do things that makes me uncomfortable. Yesterday was my sister-I-law’s graduation, she got a degree after 8 years of going to school full time!! She is a rude, moody person. I always took all her rude actions but this year when I sent her Happy birthday present and she did not even call or email to say thank you and complained to my mother-in-law about the quality of my present (very childish!!) I thought that’s it! I am not going to her graduation party!

Any way I told my husband that I was not going with them and I would take my son to my brother’s new house to visit them and see the new place and he agreed. My husband and my mother-in-law were leaving the house at the same time that I was heading to my brother’s place. I decided to take a wine since I had not yet got any present for their house. As soon as my husband saw the wine in my hand, he said, “This is an expensive wine! Take something else!” he is not a cheap, stingy person at all and every time we go to any body’s house even a simple visit he gets something to take. I was already upset because of some of his mom’s comments earlier, I got really angry I left the wine on the ground and said” you get every one something even for a simple visit and now telling me not to take a wine to my brother’s house?” I know I was a little bit loud but his response was worse than my reaction. He said” you are acting like that because my Mom is here, wait until your mom comes and I will do the same thing to you”. I got really upset because it was not his first time to threaten me to treat my Mom bad if I don’t put up with all the B.S. of his family. I don’t want to make his mom devil and my Mom angle but My Mom helped us a lot, if it wasn’t because of her help I could not go back to work or I should have put my baby in day care in a very early age. She helped us with every thing from moving to taking care of the baby to managing the house when I was busy with work and now he was threatening me to treat my mom badly. I could not take it, how he can easily forget all her care and love, although she has her own faults. It was so cruel and childish to me at the same time.
Any way we were in peace mode for a while and now every thing is in tense mode again. I am not saying that I am right and he is wrong we are both wrong and having In-laws around, my side or his side is a big challenge for our relationship. Whenever is just 3 of us we are fine and in a good mood but as soon as his mom is here or sometimes when my Mom was here we both get defensive and unreasonable.

He tried to talk to me this morning and calm me down but we ended up fighting again. When I get mad as I said madness stays with me for a while!


Anyway after carrying all these anger this morning to work. I focused on my work (I am good at it, I can easily distract from all thoughts and just work) until noon then went to Gym in my lunch break, which helped me a lot.

I heard two interesting news in the afternoon:

1-Sean Penn has traveled to Iran as a journalist for presidential election, which was really surprising. He is a very good actor and I am a fan of him but I never knew that he is interested in politics especially in Middle East!! Now I admire him even more.

2-Micheal Jackson is not guilty after all! I really don’t know if he was guilty or not but I know something that if you are rich and you hire a Million dollar Lawyer in this country you can manipulate law and justice!!!!!!!!

Now at this time of the night I feel better, on my way home this afternoon I thought to my self that I should stop acting all angry and upset, that won’t do any good to me.
I played the most of evening with my son and had few words with my husband! That’s married life one day you are happy next day angry and then you have no way out rather than at least try to be happy again!

That was a long story for just one day. Wasn’t it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Upset

I am just very upset and angry. I had a bad, loud argument with my husband as usual family, in-laws,... I don't even feel like explain the details. It is one of those moments that I am really upset with myself, with every one and I don't even want to write more.

World cup

Football is so important for the most of countries in the world and is considered as a national game. I think US is the only country that majority of it’s people are not fan of this popular game. They even call it soccer!! They always want to be different, like Labor Day that most of the world celebrate the first day of May but here, they celebrate it the first Monday of September!! I myself think that the reason that they don’t let football/soccer get famous enough is, this game can create lots of unity between people and at the same time lots of enthusiasm, it is a game that has created big riots in countries like England and can become a political game too. US in general don’t like too much attention on some thing when it can lead to riot or any thing like that!! My husband believes they don’t promote Football that much because they cannot make that much money on it. They cannot stop the game and have advertisement in the middle of the game! They must wait at least 45 minutes!!

Anyway the world cup is close and there have been games between different groups of different countries to lead the best one or at least the winners to World cup 2006. In Iran Football is a very great deal although our government doesn’t like it that much too for the same reasons I mentioned before but they cannot stop people to be crazy about it. You see kids from very early ages play football in the streets, parks, schools, etc. Our team has been doing really good this year and they just won the game with Bahrain. That leads them to the world cup, which was the wish of millions of Iranians all over the world. The game with Bahrain was at 7:30 am today (Pacific time), my husband who is a very big fan of Football took off today to watch the game with his friends. I bet there has been a big celebration in Iran all over the cities. This is the only time that people can really celebrate; they can even dance in the street!! The last time that Iran team leaded to Word cup in 1998, I was still in Iran, I never forget that happiness and celebration in town, I was part of it myself. I wish I were in Iran this morning to celebrate with people. Poor our people, they don’t have much opportunity to celebrate and be happy!!

God bless Iran national Football team!

My Son's Birthday

Friday was my son 2nd birthday. I got him a yammy cake and took it to his school. They celebrated for him along with his classmates. His teacher told me that he had so much fun and loved it when every one was singing happy birthday for him. On Saturday we had invited bunch of friends and family kids to Chuckee-E-Cheese which is a very fun place for kids, full of games and toys. They have big dulls that sing for kids and dance for them. He enjoyed it a lot, he was runing around and trying every machine and game.

I cannot beleive he is already 2 years old! time flies so fast and we get old soon. We should enjoy every second of it!

My Mom is coming back in less than 3 weeks, she wants to get her own place this time. although I love it to have her here close to me but living on her own won't be that easy. living in this city is expensive! she can do some light work and she is a clever woman but still, it is not easy. I don't want to stop her because I don't want to make decision for her or interfer but I am concerened. Of course me and my brother will help her but we both have our own things too.
Any way I should wait and see what is going to happen!