When I heard in news that there was another big earthquake in Iran, especially when I heard that it happened in poor villages, it was like a knife in my heart. Why it always happens to poor people? in this cold winter of Iran with an irresponsible government! That is not really fair.

I truly believe in god but sometimes I cannot really understand him/her. there is just one philosophy that can make sense, if we come back to this world again, then this world can be our heaven or hell depends on our last life so when people are miserable and bad things happen to them it is because they were not really good people in last life and they are paying for it, but people like top Hollywood stars with all that fortune must have been really good people in the pervious life!! who may not have this fortune next time because they kind of abusing it now!!!!!!!!!!

My God I know I sound ridicules but that's the only way I can convince my self when I see all that Injustices in this world. May be it's all nature thing not really related to any thing. Any way I just wanted to share my dumb thoughts. I really wish comfort and patience for the poor people!

Party

we have another long weekend this week. Tomorrow is president day. It is raining all the time. We never had this much rain in California before. I don't know what people do in the cities that it rains all the time, it is boring and depressing you cannot do much in a rainy day!

We had about 20 guests last nigh, all of my husbands close friends with their families. Persian parties is all about work for the host, most of us obligate ourselves to have at least 3 different dishes and making each one needs at least half day of preparation! Just imagine having these kinds of parties especially when you a baby at home. I have already told my husband when my mom leaves I cannot throw any big party. I really don't have time and energy for that. He loves having people over all the time. I wish he were more Americanized after living in this country over 20 years!! The point is you yourself do not enjoy the party while you are all the time serving and worrying about every thing. We really make every thing complicated. Americans at least those that I know do not bother about having these kind of parties the maximum they do is inviting couple of friends have some sausage or stake to barbecue and some drinks, every body helps himself and that's about it! That’s the way it should be simple but joyful!

Valentine's Day

Two days ago was Valentine’s Day although they say it is a commercial day for the businesses and restaurants, which I somehow agree with it, but I like the day anyway. It is a good excuse to have some fun. This year was our sixth Valentine together actually we got engaged on Valentine’s Day in 2000. So it always brings me good memories. We went to our favorite Japanese restaurant, one of those that they make food in front of you so you can see what you are really eating!!
I heard that it has become very common to celebrate it in Iran too. I guess poor young people are looking for any excuse to have some celebration and fun and if it is westernized they show it off more to make the government authorities more upset!

I heard and saw in news that there has been a very heavy snow in Tehran although it looks beautiful when it snows there, but it has created lots of hassles for people. When I saw some pictures of snow from Pahlavi Street (the largest street in Tehran full of trees) I really missed it. It is over 6 years that I have not seen any snow. Sometimes I really miss Iran, miss the people and miss the culture! I remember that whenever it was snowing at night we used to pray to have a heavy snow so we could be off of school and go to the street with other kids and make the snowman. The joy that I felt on snowing days that I was off of the school is one of the enjoyments that I never forget in my life! As soon as I would hear from radio that schools were off I would scream and call my friends to share the joy and set up time to go out and play! God, childhood is so good and fun! No responsibility, no worries! I know it is not like that for every child and some poor child should even make money for the parents but I am talking about the lucky ones like myself!

Here is a link to the pictures of Tehran with heavy snow. Enjoy!

http://www.tehran24.com/photos/index.html

Health is the most important thing

I was sick really bad in last couple of days. it started from last week and got worse over the weekend. I could not go to work for two days. I was not this sick for such a long time. I took Antibiotics almost after 5 years! I think my body was weak and it is still weak. I feel a lot better but I cough a lot! I went to work today and I had a lot to take care of. Thank god I feel better. Nothing is more valuable than health. when I was in bed for the whole day I thought about all those sick people that spend every day in hospital waiting for death! we should really appreciate health as long as we have it and should try our best to keep it in a good condition!

Every thing else is almost same; My mom is getting ready to go back to Iran in one month. I know it will be hard for me especially in the beginning. My son is doing good at daycare and me and my husband are trying to get a long better. Life is short and fast we should enjoy as much as we can!

Death Anniversary

Yesterday was exactly 13 years since my father passed away. I just remembered it last night. In Iran we have different calendar so it is hard to remember all occasions right on time. I still cannot believe it that 13 years has passed, it was so shocking; he was just 52 years old. He tried to save one of his co-workers and he got electrocuted himself. It took me long time to get over my grief. I really wish my father was alive and could play with my son. I am sure he would adore him. I think when you lose one of your loved ones the part of your heart that belonged to that person will remain sad for the rest of your life.