Memorial Weekend

Tommorow is Memorial day and we are having a long weekend. We decided to have a relaxing long weekend. So far it's been relaxing for example I took two hours nap today, which happens very rarely for me. I loved it!
We are planing to take my son to wild animal park tomorrow which is kind of a Safari! it's fun and I think he will like it. It's amazing that when you have kid every thing is for him even your fun plans is the plans for him! Since my Mom is gone back home we have not got chance to go out alone, just on my birthay night. We both miss movie teather a lot!

Election in Iran

I always listen to the Persian radio station every morning when I am on my way to work. That is a good station and especially the news part is very good. Today they were talking about presidency election in Iran, which will happen very soon I think in just couple of weeks. 1014 people took part in presidential candidate registration and “shoraye negahban” which is a little powerful organization works directly under the leader rejected all, except 6 of them!! 93 of candidates were women!! What they were thinking when they decided to register?? Any way all 6 approved candidates are from hardliners party!! That created lots of tension and finally the leader ordered the “shoraye Negahban” to approve another two from other party (Moderate party, our current president is from the moderate party)!!
These all seem like a joke to me. What kind of democracy is that?? I feel truly sorry for the people especially the young ones. Most of the young people want to immigrate but not every one has the chance to move out from that hell! Where this is really going?

I remember the year before I left Iran was presidential election for the current president (his first round). I did not want to vote but every body around me encouraged me to do so. Every one thought he could change some thing and I voted. One year passed and nothing really changed, it was about time that I decided to move out, there were personal reasons behind my immigration but the main reason was being able to live freely somewhere else rather than my own land. I could not tolerate that system at all and I know most of young people in Iran feel same way. I was lucky to be able to move to US but how many young people have that opportunity?
Here is not a perfect world but even if there is a president up there that %50 of population don’t like, at least they have hope to have their own ideal president next time. If the foreign policy is not approved by half of the population, at least every one has opportunity to live a good life. I mean it! Every one has that opportunity here! If they are some people that are not living a good life is because they have chosen not to. How much choice have people in our country? You can be the smartest but not be able to have a decent life not because you don’t want to but because the system does not want it!

I truly pray for the day that our people can vote freely and have real democracy. The feeling that I have towards my people is like a person who was in a drowning ship and could find a wood to save himself in the ocean but sees how others are drowning in that ship without any hope!

Feeling good

-Since I have started going to Gym I feel a lot better. I have more energy, I am more posotive and feel good about myself. I go 3 times a week in my lunch break about 40 minutes. although it is not much but it's better than nothing and has such a great effect on me.

-My best friend comes to our city for Internship and she stayed with me for two nights. It was so much fun we chit chated a lot and reviewd all the good memories. One of the most enjoyable thing in the world is just sitting there and talk to your best friend who knows you very well and loves you because of who you are! Some one that won't judge you and understands you some times more than your own family. We have such a strong bound and connection that I think no distance can affect that!

-My son is doing a lot better and he has the big smile on his face again, last week this time he had fever and was so cranky. Some thing that motherhood has thaught me is that the bad time passes fast and I should just be patient and stay cool!

Finally I am in a good mood again. I feel I have obtained the balance that I was lacking of for a while, part of it was my tiredness, being my Mom here( although she was great help and I miss her, but having an extra person in your home even your mom can affect the balance in your life!) on the other side and dealing with in-laws was driving nme nuts!! I feel I am in control of myself and my life again and that's what I needed.

Tomorrow is Friday! Happy friday!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been more than a week that I did not write my blog. My son got sick again and he had throat infection with high fever. I stayed home with him almost 2 days and I missed my best friend's graduation. I realy wanted to be there at her graduation, it was a great achivement for her. She graduated from pharmacy school despite of all her problems including her divorece. We know each other since we were 10 years old. She is such a great friend for me. I thought to go and my husband would watch my son but he had high fever and I could not leave him. I guess when you become a mother you become very unpredictable too!

My son's terrible 2 has already started and we have a hard time dealing with him, I think he is more spoiled than usuall too. One of the reason was that he was with my Mum and she never said No to him!!

My Mother-in-law is here with us, she stayed more than one week! but she has been more helpful and understanding this time. I treated her very nicely too.

I hope I come back with more exciting news and stories!!

Birthday

Today was my birthday and it was agreat one. My husband surprised me with a very nice gift. a Luis Vitan purse which I really liked to have but I never wanted to spend so much money just on a purse but he got it for me although he does not believe in buying expensive brand name stuff!! When he gave me I said: "honey you should not have spend so much money (it is $700!!) and he said you deserve it. It meanth a lot to me. I was like a little girl who got her favorit dull!!

I know that you will think that I a materialistic but I should confess that I love fasion and brand name stuff but I am moderate about it I always try not spend over budget Any way I really enjoyed my excellent present! When I went to work I had several email from my friends from Euorope, Iran, Canada and... I has calls and messages for my birthday and I enjoyed it so much to be remembered by all my close friends.

My nice co-workers took me to my favorite Italian resturant and I enjoyed the lunch and the cake a lot. They are very sweet.

In the afternoon when I got back home I got more calls and my brother and his fiance came over with a very nice buque of flower and a nice present another purse! (this year is the year of purse for me) and finally I put the baby in sleep and my Mother-in-law watched him so we could go for a romantic dinne. I liked the resturaunt a lot and enjoyed the food so much. That was a very nice birthday for me! I was thinking by myself that I am so lucky to be surrounded by so many good friends and family who really care about me. I won't forget this birthday and I enjoyed it alot!!

Birthday is close!!

I will be 32 on Friday. I can not believe it, I remember when I was for example 16.5 I would say I am 17 until I became 22 and after that I would not add up my age until the very birthday day. The thing is I still don’t feel like 32, sometimes I don’t believe that I am married and I have a son. I think I am dreaming! It was just yesterday that I was 18 years old and I thought I could make every thing happen for myself! The more we get older the more we realize that reality is so far from dreams. Although I made some of my dreams happen but of course not all of it. I don’t think there is any body on earth that could make all his dreams happens. The thing is sometimes those dreams are not even good for us to happen! Like you loved someone at that age and you wanted to get married to that person so bad but it did not happen and it was good for you!
I am not sure if I would go back what I would change in my life, there are mistakes that I am sure I would avoid them but may be all those mistakes made me the person that I am today. Not like I am a great person now but at least have some values for myself.
I need lots of improvements and one of the things that I learned as I grew older was knowing myself better and knowing my faults better! If I want to list my faults, which really need improvements, the list would be something like this, I write it here so I remember them better:
1-Impatiant, I really need to be more patient!
2-Gets angry fast, I should manage my anger more, although I am better these days but has room to improve!
3-Let negative things and negative thoughts go, be more positive!
4-I am judgmental about people that I dislike, I should be fairer about the people that I don’t like!
5-Be more humble about certain things, I am a humble person in lots of ways but sometime snobbish about some few things!
These are the major faults that I can think of right now. If you had asked me about my faults when I was just 20 years old, I could not list them at all!! So getting older is a good thing!!
Finally I must admit that I am a lucky person and I am living a good life, despite my faults, god has been kind to me. I should just remember that years are flying (after 30 it flies faster) and I should make the best of it!