Shopping

Thanksgiving was fun. We were invited to my brother- in-law's house and they served the best turkey ! every thing was delicious. I feel so sorry for poor turkeys in Thanksgiving time!!

My brother in low's house has great ocean view and we could see the sunset. I really thanked god for all I have and I wished every one could have nice peaceful life.

Me and my Mom was ready to go for shopping this morning and I thought we should take the baby, but to our surprise my husband said that he would take care of him until noon and then bring him to the mall around noon. Me and my Mom were both so happy because it is really hard to go shopping with the little devil! my favorite store had a great sale and I got the very nice top that I really wanted to buy, on sale. My Mom got some stuff for gifts to take to Iran she will go in 4 months but she is nervous about gifts from now!!!! That's the culture!!

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays in US. It is always the last Thursday of November, actually just on Thanksgiving and Christmas you can find everywhere closed, although on Thanksgiving some stores are open until noon. People get together and make Turkey, which I don’t like that much but I like the celebration, a lot. We are off on Friday after Thanksgiving and it makes it even more fun. 4 days off. I love the day after Thanksgiving because of the big sale everywhere. My favorite expensive stores have the majority of stuff on sale!

My Boss has invited all of us for lunch today since today is a half a day work so every one can get ready for Thanksgiving!! I usually start at 7:00 am but yesterday she told me “since we will all go for lunch at noon you can come later tomorrow” she is so thoughtful and considerate. I came to work around 8:00 am.
We are all looking forward to our Thanksgiving lunch today!

Being Grateful

I had a forwarding email from a friend that was a picture of a child in Sudan. The picture was taken in 1994 and photographer won the Pulitzer Prize for it. The picture showed a child who was dying from starvation.

I was so sad to see that. I hope god forgives all of us because of our ignorance towards the world, towards the starved kids. I feel so ashamed of myself. I buy Lotto ever Friday and dream about what I will do if I ever win the Lotto. I already have won the Lotto, having a decent life in one of the best parts of the earth. Shame on me, when I am sitting at my desk and sipping my hot coffee and dream about being rich lots of people are dying from starvation, bombs, … I should be more and more grateful for what I have in life.

I read somewhere that “ The rich person is the one who wants less” that is absolutely true.

I pray from bottom of my heart that god helps all poor people and we can have a better world with more justice!

Religion

Last night my Mom and my husband had religious discussions that leaded to an argument. This was not the first time they were discussing two different religions
that each of our family has. I had warned them several time not to do it because I believe discussing religions and Politics when people have different opinions can turn ugly and nasty, but unfortunately they both love discussions especially my husband. He loves talking about different subjects and discusses them for several hours.

Any way I noticed I should take the control and stop them both. I told my husband “you know what, you should stop comparing religions and discussing it from now on, If I knew you we would be this much into religion, I would not marry you in first place. We have a kid and if we have lots of religious conversations in our house he will get confused and our marriage will be jeopardized too”. He accepted my words and promised not to talk about religion or discuss it from now on. I asked my Mom not talk about religion as well.

The thing is when I was marring him I new our religion differences can cause problem but since he did not seem to be religious at all and I was not a religious person I thought it would be okay. We both believe in god so much and try to be decent people which is really seems enough to me. I think most of people have the religion that they inherited from their family. There are very few people that research and choose their own religion themselves.

Unfortunately religion is a big issue in today world, I think it always have been an issue. People kill each other because of their differences in beliefs and religions. I wish we all respect each other’s beliefs and learn how to live with differences. In every religion you see good decent people, ordinary ones and evil people. Being good or bad is not because of a certain religion people have, it is because how they are raised and how they choose to be.

I believe god is beyond every thing and he loves all human beings, of course the ones with good hearts and good manners more, I myself don’t think religion in the way we interpret it really matters to him that much.

Any way I will try my best to raise my son as a decent person without any prejudices about religion, race, nationality, sex and …

My Ideal Day

Today is one of the days that I am not really in mood to work. I wish I was at home or on a great vacation, it’s been about two years that I have not been on a real vacation.

Let’s imagine my ideal day:

1-Wake up around 10:00 am.
2-Have a great breakfast
3-Play with my son
4-Go to spa and have 1-hour message, swim and enjoy the Jacuzzi.
4-Have a fantastic Italian lunch with my family(Of course some one should be there to feed my baby so I can enjoy the lunch).
5-Take two hours nap.
6-Go for shopping my favorite stuff along with my best friend.
7-Rest a little bit and Play with my little one, put him to sleep. Get ready for a fantastic dinner and dance party with my husband and bunch of cool friends.
Of course this cannot be every day plan but having such day at least once a month would be fantastic!

War

This morning I got an email from one of my co-workers that was showing American soldiers in Iraq, unfortunately since the pictures were not attachments I could not put it here, any way it was showing American soldiers sad and kind at the same time in Iraq. At the end of email, the original sender had a message too, these are the exact words: “ When you receive this, please stop for a moment and say a prayer for our troops (land, air, and sea) in Afghanistan, Kuwait, Iraq, and around the world. There is nothing attached....... This can be very powerful......Just send this to people in your address book. Do not stop the wheel, please.... “

I got really mad. These people are so ignorant, we have a saying in Farsi that says “they think their blood is more red than others” it means they think they are better than other people. Why this kind of people do not send out pictures of Iraqis who have been killed or the ones that are still suffering from war. These spoiled people have not tasted war to know how suffering and destructive a war is. I myself was in Iran the whole time we had war with Iraq, as American say, “I have been there done that”. I know the feeling when you are not sure that if today is the last time you see your family, when the missiles destroys the city you are living in it and the fear you see in every body’s eyes.
I remember the day that Iraq sent missile to Tehran for the first time, I was 15 years old, I was at home alone and very studing biology for my final, and in 10 minutes 8 missiles was dropped. Can you imagine how I felt and how every one in Tehran felt? Who sold those missiles to Iraq in first place??
Any way I feel bad for American soldiers too, for every human being that is a victim of war. But the difference between the soldiers and Iraqis is that they become soldier by their own choice but Iraqis did not choose to have war!!!!!!!!!

Rough weekend

My husband’s best friend is moving from Los Ageless to our city so they called and said they would come on Saturday to check on houses. They came and took my husband for seeing houses while I had taken my son to play class, I had already made lunch and they came back around 2:00 pm. I served the lunch and now I was thinking what to make for dinner!! I though Hamburger would be easy, any way I made hamburger for dinner and at the same time was watching my son playing with their daughter, I always thought she is a well behaved kid, but I saw that she would not really share any thing with my son although it was all his toys and he is younger (she is 4.5 years old) she would start crying as soon as he wanted to play with the same toy. Any way the night passed and they were supposed to go and see more houses on Sunday morning. The friend’s wife asked me if they could leave their daughter with us for couple of hours and I accepted. Oh my god, that was the first time that I was watching some one’s kid who was not a relative (I had just watched my nieces before). She got even worse when the parents were not around; my son could not get any where close her otherwise she would start crying. I had such a hard time so after two hours I called my husband (he was with them again) and asked him to wrap it up faster and come home. Any way they came back 1 hour later. I had watched her for 3.5 hrs, which was tough.

After they left, my husband said ”you had a long face when we came back, they realized that you were not happy watching their kid”. Now I was so mad I said: “Sorry I have not taken any acting class, when I am tired, I am tired. I work full time during week and I only have weekend to take care of stuff at home and rest I cannot serve your family and friends all the time”. Any way I nagged as much as I could since the whole last week we were kind upset with each other. Some times I think may be I nag too much, but he does not understand me too. He always loves to serve other people and invite friends and family all the time. It is tiring for me. I work and I have a little kid, but he thinks I am lazy or not as much friendly as I should be!

Sometimes I feel I am on the edge and ready to end every thing. I love him, he is an honest man but sometimes he does not really get my point. Most of our fights are because of others! I separation is a stupid thought and he is not that bad plus we have kid together that I do not want him to get heart at any price. May be it is my fault more, when I am in a bad mood (he is usually the one that pushes me to the bad mood with stupid little fights over inviting people or taking care of the kid) or tired, I nag a lot and look for excuses to complain then I see all his faults bigger and bigger for instance he is 11 years older than me, when I get angry I think why did I marry an older guy or the other thing that comes to my mind when I am mad at him, is his religion that is different than mine, I think why I did not get married with some one with same religion as mine!! I know it sounds stupid, because I knew about his age and religion from the beginning!

Any way I become very negative. I know I should stop it; I should become more patient and realistic. May be these are all because I was brought up in a non-stable family. As a kid I was always worried about my parents’ marital status and that has leaved a hidden anger in me that every once in a while is triggered and messes me up!
May be I should see a counselor that’s what my mom told me too, I did not want to tell her one of the reason that I am an impatient person is her. Although she is a great mother and has done a lot for me but she had a big roll in creating this hidden anger in me.

I am trying to improve myself because I know my husband is a good man, he has lot of good qualifications. I wish he would try to understand me more. The good point of our relationship is we tell each other every thing is bothering us, it some times make us more mean but at least won’t hide there an explode later!!
I think I have been brave for all my confessions today. At least I feel better now. I don’t know if writing web log can act as a consular!!!

Election Result

I am so disappointed with election result that I cannot concentrate on my work today!What these people think? Don’t they see the facts? Are they fooled by empty promises and religious preaches! Oh god where is real democracy??????

Halloween

Yesterday was Halloween. I remember my first Halloween was so exciting to me, I dress up as Cleopatra and got lost of complements! Second year we went to a big Iranian party and I dressed up as a devil but from third year on I was not that excited to dress up, but I like Halloween any way.
This year I did little Halloween decoration in the house for the first time. I think the reason is I have a little one at home now and Halloween is mostly for kids. Although he does not understand Halloween now but it was fun to have some decorations.

The interesting thing is here in US stores start selling stuff for every occasion at least two months in advance so they can get people into the mood of the specific occasion and sell more! Every thing is about money here! But I should admit that it is fun too, they make money and people have some fun time that’s a good trade!!

Last night me and my husband were so lazy to take our son to trick or treat (kids go to door to door and ring the bell and ask for trick or treat, if the person wants to do trick they scare a way the kid or the person who rang the bell or they treat them with candy. No one of course trick little kids.) Any way since there are lots of kids in our neighborhood we had lots of kids ringing our doorbell, I had lots of candy ready for them, they were all so cute and polite. I told my husband we should take our little one for the trick or treat too. It will be a new experience for him and he finally got over his laziness. I dressed him up as Blue (the dog cartoon character) and we took him door to door and he had so much fun collecting candy, although he won’t have any of it!!